... if you are a person.

I've said this many times, and I'll say it again: people are the most complex of all. They're unpredictable, full of emotions, opinions, thoughts, abilities, moods... EVERYTHING. The complexity is mind-numbing. I'm not excluded from this group but I like to think that I'm a bit more... rational than average. Or.... I'm just kidding myself.

I'm saying this in response to so many things that I experienced in the course of a day (today to be precise). But I guess I'm only overwhelmed because it is possibly a lot of information to take in one sitting for a normal day's amount of information. I think the magnitude of it all in my head will die down the next few days, please pray for me.

I've also said this before: I'd rather be working with computers than people. However, just a thought: computers are not a result of emotions; it is the result of careful programming by the very same type of being called 'people' who are more complex than this creation called a computer, believe it or not!

I guess I am more inclined to want to be a computer than a person - if I were a computer, I wouldn't have to deal with emotions I can't handle, let alone other people's emotions; I'll just be churning out actions as required per the input. Is it all because of the money? Why is it ultimately the money that makes people act all outrageously/selfishly/irrationally? (I guess they need to read some of the books I highly recommend, please watch out for my upcoming post on these books, hopefully I get around to writing them).

Do people really believe it when they say things like 'no amount of money can buy happiness'? Or are these sayings said to project the image that it doesn't matter, but it actually really does? I guess you can't really stay clean in a dirty pond, a pond where people see themselves as clean when really, all they perceive as clean is observed through mud-filled eyes --  how skewed is that? How can they know better when they are surrounded by the same things they refuse to acknowledge as not being as good as they claim it is?

I'm losing it. I really wish for so many things I can't undo now. But the only way out is through, and we'll see where this road goes. 'Cos boy, being an adult is far too complicated than I could ever imagine it to be when I was a child.




It's hard to forget something that happened in your life which left such a huge impact on you (both good and bad), whether physically or emotionally (or both). Try as hard as you might, you just can never erase it from your memory; you might misplace the fine details of the event, but you never forget the main gist of it, the one that made it stick forever.

Sometimes it's from the words you've heard, the people you've met, or the things you or someone else did, or any combination of these. Whatever it was, you will always remember it. Do you have such memories? I'm sure you do; we all do.

There are a handful of events that have happened in my life which I would prefer to never have had lingered in my memories till today; and then there are others which are forever etched in my mind and heart, and I never ever wanna lose the thought of them, ever.

I don't want to get into details because they're too overly personal and shall remain mine until future disclosure (if ever). But I just want you to know, that holding on to the bad ones will hurt and it'll do you no good, so learn hard on how to let it go. And for the good ones that you cherish but will never happen again, don't fret, don't cry... Just remember how you felt when those things happened -- take solace in that, because you should be grateful that such a memory existed than none at all... You bet I do.

As for the title, well, the firsts are always the easiest to recall, isn't it? I remember all of mine.



Day #16: 2-June

Movie day - Friyay - Weekend is here!

After a painful headache spell during the afternoon, I went to the gym with Wani, had dinner/buka puasa at Subway together with Peng (seafood sensation is my favourite flavour and it was SOTD!) and watched.... *drum roll* BAYWATCH!
The 2017 version of course!

Wasn't exactly sure about the movie, but after watching it, I can sum it up for you: action comedy!
Oh, and a dollop of sexiness (come on, it is about Lifeguards in red swimsuits after all)


Day #15: 1-June

Oh, the big 6th month of the year is here!

Today, we had lunch with the Cebu Pacific auditors at Mr and Ms Cafe, Oasis Ara Damansara.

It was so yummy AND filling; so filling in fact that I could hardly keep my eyes open during the closing meeting because of all the energy required to digest it XD

Here's a photo of my dish as well as the auditor's:
1) Mine: Chicken Buttermilk french toast
2) Auditor's: avocado salmon salsa

Day #14: 31-May

So it is the end of May, and another one week of The Doublers.

As some of you may know, I tutor on the side while having a full-time day job. The subjects I tutor are additional maths and physics for SPM/IGCSE levels. If you ask me why I do this as a side job, the truth is I do find teaching gratifying (especially when students go like "ohhhhh I understand now!") and earning additional income for something I quite like doing is a bonus!

I've been doing this since 2014 and although I cannot say that my students are guaranteed A+'s under my tutelage, I can say that their grades do improve and hopefully they understand the basics of these subjects that can actually be put to use in their daily lives. (Here's hoping....)

Anyway, I don't consider myself a teacher in the normal sense (as I label what I do as tutoring) but I was so pleasantly surprised and touched when I received my first ever teachers day gift from my student Nadiah. Thanks girl! =)
Here's pics of the gift! I love it, it's so adorable!!!

Day #13: 30-May

So today is the first day back at work after the holiday. Gosh, it's Tuesday Blues 😭

Again, this is meant for journaling POSITIVE experiences, so here goes.

Today, I had the opportunity to try out Peak Fitness which is located at Citta Mall. It's a gym that just opened in Dec 2016. Equipment are new, and the changing room/toilets are clean. It's been so long since I stepped into a paying-gym LOL (although I am on a 7-day trial pass). I'm still deciding on whether to obtain a membership at this gym.

I love that there's the chin up machine! And that corporate membership for us is just slightly over the RM100 mark.

Day #12: 29-May

Today is the day I go home. But Penang also feels like home. I just don't think I can drive here, LOL.

It's sad to know it's my last day in Penang, but since this is the Doublers and the intent is to BE MORE POSITIVE, I choose to reflect on the great times spent in the last 5-days.

Never going hungry thanks to yummy Penang food and eating three square Mrs a day, baking a chocolate peanut butter brownies, curling hair successfully, petting dogs at a dog cafe, having an awesome facial experience, buying cheap cotton on body exercise pants, first time fish spa, delivering​ pizza to school, etc. Oh, and knowing that the ais kacang stall will not be closing anytime soon is also good!

And to end the trip, there was dinner at Spades Burger ----- YUMS.
Baconizer beef burger shown here.

Say #11: 28-May

Today was lazy Sunday (but funday) because....

We went to Hin Bus Depot and i was pleasantly surprised with the atmosphere : there was a 'flea' market, a cafe, an Art Jamming place... Nice venue discovery. And then we went to a doggy cafe and the critters were all so adorable!
There two corgis and many Pomeranians and a shihtzu ... And we had a slice or (human) chocolate brownie which was rich and just delish!

Oh, and finally the all-important star fish of Penang: Char Kuey Teow from Ah Leng!

Day #10: 27-May

Today, we finally had the all-famous ais kacang of Swatow Lane aka New World Park (the main reason why I came up to Penang for, if there ever needs to be a reason).

I must say that for the last two decades of having this yearly, the taste has been ever consistent and the contents of it has remained the same, amount-wise ie no reduction in ingredients or proportion (*cough* SS15 rojak *cough*)

But alas, will they truly be closed forever? Or will the management of New World Park do something to get it going once more?
I think a revamp would do it good.