The beggar readily sees a bare floor as a place for a good sleep.
The rich man will have nothing else but the softest bed in a five-star hotel.

Both men, poor & rich, have a similar need - sleep. But they have completely different levels of craving, different heights of human desire.

Human desire never ends.

Many people think that a life of luxury where they earn more and more would mean that they live better.

But the material world is never-ending. It cannot give us what we want even when we think we have gained it.

The world is becoming more materialistic.
Many people think that stimulation from television, from drugs, and all sorts of sensuous enjoyment can give them pleasure.

But having these pleasures does not mean you are contented.

Human beings are very fragile.

Materialism, says a proverb, 'is like a sharp knife. In a mother's hand, it can prepare delicious food, but in a murderer's it serves a very different purpose'.

"When you reach a stage that you feel no different sleeping on a luxurious bed or on a bare floor, when you reach this outlook on life, this way of living, you can surely overcome a lot of difficulties and handicaps."

1. Practice body awareness. By doing this, people frequently change their habits and will 'spontaneously' give up bad habits such as smoking, and take up good ones, like eating the right amounts of food.

2. Get good restful sleep. But sleep assisted by alcohol and sleeping pills does not count.

3. Consume the 'seven colours of the rainbow' and the 'six tastes of life'. A varied diet consists of food groups which exhibit the seven colours you can see, and the six flavours you can taste (sweet, sour, salty, bitter, pungent and astringent).

4. Exercise for at least an hour every day.

5. Get rid of all the toxins in you life. This includes 'toxic' relationships and 'toxic' emotions such as anger, fear, anxiety and guilt, which can have a direct impact on your health.

6. Make sure you have a daily dose of affection and nurturing love. This can come from a healthy relationship, a child or even from a pet.

Last, but definitely NOT the least......

7. Do NOT take yourself too seriously.

Red, one of the primary colours. It's just


I was tuning into CNN one fine day (Yes, THAT news channel. Don't ask.) and it so happen that the topic of the colour 'red' came up. It had to do with (none other than) the recent 'buying over' of Man U by some really, really RICH (a.k.a. billionaire, I think) man.

"Clearly, you're oblivious"

I don't know what's the big deal about it. It's just strange to think that there are so many fans who were (and maybe are, although there's of no use) protesting against it. How much of a difference would Man U be NOW? People would still go crazy despite whoever 'owns' the club, I presume?

Call me naive but seriously, I think it's pure business. Sheer ka-ching.
Really. The footballers still play the same as they have always been, don't they?

Enough about that. Back to red.
What CNN had to say about red was that the more sought-after, popular, or featured stories of teams/companies/humans tend to have the element of RED in them. As in, externally.
Take Man U.
Tony Blair AND his neck ties.
Levi's. Etc.
Somehow, they were implying that in a way, red is influential, somewhat distinguished. Not that I'm denying the possibilities now.

I wonder if I should get more red tops now. Hmmmm....It might just work.


But red isn't only for material objects and their exterior.
Red can also be the color of other things.
Yes, I'm speaking along the lines of abstract.

Red, the colour of War. (Watch "War in Colour" on Discovery Channel. Enough said.)
Red, the colour of Blush. (That slight tinge of darker pink on the face. You know what I mean.)
Red, the colour of Anger. (Well, you don't turn green with anger, do you?)
Red, the colour of Embarassment. (And neither do you turn green with embarrassment, right?)

I have always been told that when one wears red for a picture, somehow, it usually turns out nice. The picture as a whole, that is. Sort of.
Red's pretty striking a color, ain't it?

People's faces get red too when they laugh hard. Now that's one of my favourite shades of red on a person. It evokes a sense of brief happiness. But none too much.

Other than laughter, humiliation, short tempered-ness and blush, red also comes about due to the occasional breakouts that occur on the face. Adolescents alike, you know what I'm talking about. Say it with me, A - C - N - E!!!
Then again, it IS just a phase. It IS right? Oh well, the milder woes of teenage life.

I really don't know what it is with red but it does have an effect on people. As far as this subconcious mind is telling me, that is.
Sexy, hot women clad with daring red dresses & what not.
At least, that's the color of what the movies like to dress sexy, hot women in.
Mighty intriguing.

Red's quite like a universal colour. It's the colour that runs within us.
But it doesn't necessarily have to be everyone's favourite colour kan?
I twisted my hip after running in the 110 m hurdles.

No wait, this isn't the athletic Olympics.

I was talking about the Mathematical Olympiad.
You can't possibly twist your hip or any other limb for that matter.
Brain? Yes, that one can. Brain isn't a limb.

Venue : Universiti Malaya
Time : 2.30 ~ 4.30
Date : 14 May 2005

Funny how I came to be there.
Seriously, I grow hysteric at the thought of it.

After sitting in that exam hall for 2 WHOLE hours, staring at a paper full with numbers, unknowns and a ton of funky symbols, how can one NOT go crazy?

Well, you can, that is, when you decide after reading the first question you might as well catch up on some sleep.
I decided to do that AFTER the third question.
Hmmm....What would THAT make me?
Well, to tell you the truth, I DIDN'T sleep. (Now I really DO sound like a nerd)
Save the school (& me) some face.....

But nonetheless, I DO challenge those who'd drop by and read this, to answer SOME of the questions from the Mathematical Olympiad.
(shortened to make life easier..)

1) A year at the turn of a century is only a leap year if it is a multiple of 400. Therefore, 2000 was a leap year but 1900 was not a leap year. How many leap years are there from 2001-3001?

2)ABCD is a rectangle, with sides AB=2AD. Take E as the midpoint of AB and F as an arbitrary point on AD. If the area of the triangle ECF depends on point F, find the minimal and maximal value of ECF.

3) Find the sum to the infinities of the series

S = 1/2 + 1/4 + 2/8 + 3/16 + 5/32 + 8/64 + 13/128 + 21/256+...?

Yes. Now that I've looked at it a million times, I just realised how easy they actually are. Sort of.

Oh well, the past is in the past.
It's better to leave it that way.
So much for the INTERNATIONAL Mathematical Olympiad.


There is so much more to life than Maths right?
Of course there is. Like duh.
How hard can Mathematics get?
Not really, I suppose. In Form 4, of course it can't.. hmm..hmmm

So then, how difficult can the Mathematical Olympiad be?

I'm starting to think now that maybe volunteering myself wasn't a very good idea.
But by doing so I made teacher's job a little bit easier.
At the cost of my poor, deteriorating brain. And my time too.

I guess it's safe to say that NOT writing anything on the answer sheet isn't a bad thing at all, it's pretty much EXPECTED of us. Of me, to say the least. (But they didn't say anything about drawing on the answer sheet, oh, NO they didn't....)Who knows, maybe my "talent" might get discovered, and great things start to happen from there...


I do wish I could answer at least ONE question. Then maybe I wouldn't have to lose THAT much of my face. Or what's left of it...

What's worst is that I'm having midterm exams this week, over the next 2 weeks as well.
And well, being the biggest sloth of a girl, I obviously didn't do as much studying as I should be, let alone for this Olympiad.
Not that I'd be representing Malaysia even if I DID.
I feel so(very,EXTREMELY) incompetent, knowing that there ARE those who DO answer ALL the questions.
At least I tried. Oh, I mean going to try.

-to be continued-
What is the remedy to treat involuntary shyness?

And what about dealing with sudden compulsive smiling syndrome?

Not to mention the frequent "I-feel-so-obliged" tendencies.

Plus, my vulnerability of feeling emotionally strained due to guiltiness.

(Yes, I suddenly realised the attractiveness in coloured words.)

Strange, to think that I'm healthy after doing that survey. For the 2nd time.

Lucky thing I don't have to pay a visit to the psychologist weekly to seek medical advice.
That would be simply ABSURD. Finance-wise, of course.

I'm quite certain that one of the above applies to some.
Unless of course, you're perfectly happy.
Which I never thought existed. Not really anyway.

p/s : When your heart thumps so extraordinarily fast because you think you're going to get caught in the act, do what I do.
Pretend. This is my answer.
It worked the other day . Phew.
3 May 2005

Anyone who's anyone would, I daresay, want to look their best for a picture.

Whatever picture, whether it's a candid shot, posed for or group picture, it comes oh-so-naturally to want to look good in it. Or better than in person for that matter.

I DO ask myself the question of WHY. hmmm....

Naturally, all of us put quite an effort into our hair and dressing for the class picture today.
For most of us, the class picture wasn't the only photograph we're taking.

As for me, I'd like to think, 'if you screw this one up, there's another 5 more to try and look good in.' But I wouldn't really know until the photographs are developed. My patience is being tested to its limits now....


The funny thing about this day is when people who are not even in the society, club or sport enter the photograph, almost as if from nowhere. I personally don't see anything wrong with it.

As they say, "The more, the merrier."

After what happened today, other than tiring myself out from all the running up & down the stairs, I learnt something new.

Which may seem irrelevant to the topic of Picture Day. And well, it is.

I was suddenly hit hard by someone's utterly tactless remark.
What got me thinking was what made it different when it was said to me, and not others.
Meaning to say that I was being reprimanded for the very same actions as someone else, but getting a very much different view about. VERY different. I know it....

I wondered then and still am, what makes a person seem different in the eyes of one from the other?
It's inevitable to have different opinions about people. And likewise, from others onto your own self.
It sucks. Bad.
But hey, it's simply absurd to think that it isn't and can never be.

One thing I've come to accept is that change HAS to start with you.

"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye. Luke 6 :41-43

Very much well said in the Bible.
True enough.

As for me, I try my very best to not correct others in their mistakes when I myself do the same. Until I change my ways, that is.
Because, if you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make a change...

So, to say the least, being a hypocrite doesn't help much. Really, it doesn't.
Having the ability to discern, which is, to know when to shut your mouth up is very much an attitude one should cultivate, that is, IF you can't possibly change from your old ways.

Which by the way, I think applies to many people.

So yes. Zip it, when necessary.